to understand

Today, I keep having flashbacks into my nightmarish dreams.
I can be praying for a sister, and then a scene flashes by.
I can be typing a report, and yet my mind goes back into another part of the dreams…

I am having shudders as I type this.

I dare not sleep, for fear of the dreams that it might bring.
They’re too strange; I do not understand…

A quick search on for “understand” reveals:

  • The Lord looks down from heaven on all mankind to see if there are any who understand, any who seek God. (Psalm 14:2)
  • God looks down from heaven on all mankind to see if there are any who understand, any who seek God. (Psalm 53:2)

On the similarity between Psalm 14 and Psalm 53: All repetitions are not vain repetitions. We are slow to learn, and need line upon line. (Spurgeon)

Verse 2.God looked down from heaven upon the children of men. He did so in ages past, and he has continued his steadfast gaze from his all surveying observatory. To see if there were any that did understand, that did seek God. Had there been one understanding man, one true lover of his God, the divine eye would have discovered him. Those pure heathens and admirable savages that men talk so much of, do not appear to have been visible to the eye of Omniscience, the fact being that they live nowhere but in the realm of fiction. The Lord did not look for great grace, but only for sincerity and right desire, but these he found not. He saw all nations, and all men in all nations, and all hearts in all men, and all motions of all hearts, but he saw neither a clear head nor a clean heart among them all. Where God’s eyes see no favourable sign we may rest assured there is none.

To understand, I must seek God. To seek God, with nothing else but sincerity and right desire.

I pray that one day it may be made clear, if these dreams mean anything at all.


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