Papa and mama are home from their weekend away at a relative’s wedding in KL. I spent the entire morning trying to put everything in place: laundry out, floor swept, clothes folded and kept, newspaper on the coffee table, remote controls aligned…
While i was at it, i caught myself thinking at some points in time, that i was doing the work because papa is a perfectionist/nit-picker etc. But i unwound that thread of thought, and in place of it, made myself think/reminded myself that it has to be out of love that i work. Because i love my parents, i want to please them. And not just that, i am already 20. It is only right that i begin to take more ownership of this household.
I was leaving the house when papa (from the bathroom) asked loudly, “你今晚有回来吃饭吗?” I deliberated for a while, thought about RAG, about how rare it is that papa is home without work and how he and mama with combined forces will whip up such good dishes…
As i answered, “有,有回来吃”, i was also thinking of how i’ll account to the costumes team. “oh i have to go home for dinner” “oh i am going home because…” all these i rejected as obligatory excuses, which are not complete truths. No one is forcing me to go home for dinner; i am choosing to go home for dinner because i want to spend time with them, especially since they just came back.
“Love obligations” is quite an oxymoron, isn’t it? If one should love, and love with his all, wouldn’t he naturally go all out for the ones he loves? That wouldn’t be obligatory, but voluntary! He doesn’t have to, he may even be inconvenienced to certain extents, but he does, because he loves.
What if, then, he uses the things he has done in the name of ‘love’ in an argument to say that the other party owes him so and so much? Then the ‘love’ that he is speaking of ought to be questioned, shouldn’t it?
Apostle Paul speaks of love in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8,
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
What Paul speaks of is impossible to achieve by sheer human effort! Only those who have experienced even just a little bit of God’s perfect love and is always drawing on That Source to love can achieve it, albeit to less successful extent than how the Lord loves us always.
Sigh, may i continue to learn of His Love in order to live out the love that Paul talks about voluntarily.